It’s been a little over six months since my arrival to Izzy (my nickname for Israel). Many people are constantly asking me the duration of my stay; if I’m going to make Aliyah (get a dual citizenship), how I’m doing, what I’m doing, etc. Well here, I’ll give you a run down of everything.
In the last few weeks I learned I have gluten and lactose intolerance; the diet change has been drastic, difficult yet very rewarding! I’ve learned a lot about my eating habits and really learning self-control. So far, I’ve lost 6kg and I feel amazing.
I’ve also done some major introspection during my time here. I made a realization that I’m not living in the present and I have a horrible habit of either dwelling on the past (still thinking of good old times with people who have now become strangers in my life) or focusing on the future (worrying about becoming a ‘real-person’ and getting my life together). I don’t know why I keep doing it. I get these mixed emotions about my past actions and what I could’ve done differently. Then I’ll think about how my future is going to play out and worrying if I’ll ever be successful. And here’s a secret, my biggest fear in life is failing. Failing to find my true passions, failing to find my dream job, failing at serious relationships, failing to succeed. But what I realized is that I’m already failing. I’m failing at living my life, living my life in the present. I’ve also learned that I need to fail. They say one success is the equivalent of ten failures, right? My goal for the next few months is to just brush the little things off and not take everything so seriously.
This past week I attended the Masa Leadership Summit in Jerusalem. During the conference, we discussed a lot of topics and things relate back to leadership. One of was about water. What are some of the things that come to your mind when you think of water? I thought of these words: heavy, light, violent, peaceful. It’s ironic how these words are opposites, right? But I learned that the water metaphor is very parallel to the game of life. Responsibilities and expectations in life are like the holding a full cup of water. Try to hold a cup for hours, your arm starts to ache and you’ll feel uncomfortable. It’s kinda similar to the things our lives that give us stress or anxiety. Sometimes we just need to set the cup down; there comes a point where we have to take a step back and re-evaluate.
Someone pointed out the fact that anyone can have any life they want. What is it that makes you happy and what is it that you want out of this one life you have? Don’t complicate it more than it should be.
I think as humans, it’s necessary to take time out of our busy lives and really refresh. Sometimes we need to ask ourselves tough questions and have an internal struggle to understand ourselves better. I’ve been asking myself am I where I really want to be in life? What are my real aspirations? What are my goals? What are my fears? How can I overcome them? What can I do to adapt to a challenging situation if I can’t find the solution?
When making a change in life, vulnerability sneaks up. When making yourself vulnerable, you have to accept that there will be losses. The way you cope with taking your losses is the most valuable lesson you will have. For example, I mentioned earlier that I had a drastic diet change. I had to change EVERYTHING I ate and change my habits. I had to accept the fact that I will no longer be eating pizza or ice-cream and all the yummy foods I love. I also have to learn self-control and patience with learning what I can and can’t eat. I’ve accepted my losses and it’s not easy; however, I’ve gained so much wisdom through this small little challenge thrown at me.
There you have it. I challenge you to take a moment to meditate on the things you’d like to change and improve in your life. Think of ways to do it and make it happen.
For now, enjoy the photos I’ve posted for you all! All photos have a caption explaining where the photo was taken. If you want to talk more about what I wrote or where I’ve been, get in contact with me!
P.S. Still don’t know my return date. Israel’s been good to me.